Let me see: four times five is twelve, and four times six is thirteen, and four times seven is -- oh dear! I shall never get to twenty at that rate!

I always forget how many days it has been since I last blogged. As the semester nears its end, it gets more and more difficult to find time to just relax. Though I really don't have the time right now, I cannot seem to concentrate on my school work and therefore thought I'd do something productive-- even if I'm the only one who thinks it productive at all.

The days, nights, and weeks are going by faster and faster. I just realized that nine days from today is Thanksgiving! It seems like Halloween was only yesterday and Fall Break was the day before that. All of a sudden I wish time would slow down. I am getting closer and closer to my graduation, and it's very intimidating. My dearest friend from high school, ShaCarol, visited me this past weekend and we spent quite a bit of time talking about "after college." It seemed like just a few weeks before we had been talking about "after high school." On top of all that, my grandfather just had surgery and is recovering, my sister is having a baby, so many friend are getting married... it feels like we're so much older. It feels like we're nearing more weddings and baby showers and job interviews and... all that stuff that means we're really growing up. Scary, isn't it?

Clark and I struggle with time. Since we got married so young, it always feels like everything else should happen when we're younger, too. It feels like everything else has taken forever to catch up with our married status. Clark keeps saying he's afraid we're never going to get to the next step. It's how we've both been feeling lately. Perhaps it's because we're so close that things seem so far away. Thanksgiving and Christmas are just around the corner, but graduation, new car, sufficient furniture, a new computer, and careers seem like they're so far off. These things that we've been waiting for for three years are creeping up on us, and yet they seem like they're not going to happen for another three years.

I hadn't written lately because I wasn't sure what to write about. While school is taking over and I finally registered for my last semester and we've had family and friends popping up with news and Clark has been working full time... it still seems like I don't have a valid excuse for not writing. While before I thought I'd graduate and take a break from everything and focus mainly on writing my book(s), I think I may actually want to try to get a job first. I don't know. We shall see. My mind is constantly changing. I don't want to get a job if I cannot get one that involves my degree. I know that's absurd to say, because so many people these days aren't getting jobs that reflect what they went to school for... but still. One can dream, right?

Well, back to school work.