See us winter walking after a storm,

Hello friends. I am home again for the time being. It is so strange to be back in my house when I spent the past ten days or so with my parents and little sister. Ah, well. Life goes on and I have plenty of things to look forward to... I just have to find other things to fill the minutes so those come faster!

I have not done much since I've been home, but I've done enough to keep myself busy. Yesterday, after driving four hours and returning to a frantic puppy dog and kitty cat, I went to the grocery store and stocked up on necessities. As I was at the grocery store I compared prices to those I saw at the comissary. Let me say that I cannot WAIT to be at a location 24/7 where we have access to those discounts. The difference is absolutely ridiculous. It makes me sick thinking of how much money we would be saving! Today I went to the bank, to the post office, and then took Luna for a walk. We did everything just in time, because as we were returning to the car the weather started looking rather nasty. It doesn't help, either, returning from the heat and sunshine of SC to the gloom and doom of the boone-docks.

Well, the two queries I sent off for Missing You were promptly returned with polite "no thank yous." I can't say I'm not disappointed, but then I can't say I'm not surprised, either. I know that the book has a lot of editing ahead of it, and I just need to take that in and do it instead of trying to continuously push my WIP on editors and agents. I suppose sending off queries keeps me motivated. After all, Dr. Seuss was rejected 50 times... if I can beat that and then become as well known as Dr. Seuss... it will all definitely have been worth it ;-). I am now working vigorously on another project as well. That is not to say that I'm giving up on Missing You, I'm just letting it have a breather before I return to it full force.

I'm so exhausted. I suppose I've had a lot going on, and suddenly I enter a crash-and-burn session and I cannot seize it. Luna woke me up at 6:14am exactly. She stretched out of her sleeping position and then hovered over me until she realized that wouldn't do it-- and promptly licked my face to make me get up. I know this because I was in that in-between stage where I could have easily gone back to sleep had I not been disturbed, but my puppy made the decision for me and got me up instead of giving me a few more hours of restless sleep.

In the past week or so I've been considering forgiveness. It is a very difficult thing to think about, because everyone has pent up anger over something or other. Even if you have forgiven a person or situation, the hurt is still there.

In the past week I was attacked over absolute nonsense, and 99% of it was from people who had nothing to do with the situation. It just made me incredibly sad for them, because I've realized something: people in my generation will do anything to feel good about themselves. All of this drama happened over facebook. Yes, facebook. Someone said something, I confronted them, we made up after a few exchanges, and that was that. But two other people decided that it was their business and they needed to interfere. Their interference simply meant insulting me and anything they knew or thought they knew about me and my husband. Hence my last post. It just made me sad. I know this is confusing considering no one knows the details, but I do have a point.

Forgiveness. I forgave them, as difficult as it was. I'm sorry that any of it happened, but even more sorry that they found it necessary to put me down over a stupid site on the computer. I cannot imagine either of them confronting me face to face, because in REALITY they know they had no place in any of it. They just wanted to add spice to their lives, I suppose, and that's a horrid way of acheiving that.

With all that being said, I am most definitely cutting down on my internet time. There are so many things in life to experience, and that includes face-to-face relationships. We all need to stop living online and start living our real lives. I'm sorry it took something like that to make me realize it, but then... I'm glad at the same time.

Until next time.

We've all got our junk, and my junk is you!